Last week I had an appointment at the hospital, they want to get me setup for a minor surgery to expand a vain in my left arm.
It is for dialyses, I will have to go three times a week, I guess it is not the worst thing that anyone can go through, but it's pretty scary to me.
They also changed one of my medications, so now I take Lisinopril two times a day instead of one,
Which leads to my rant, my brother, I asked him to go to the store some days ago, he said we would go tomorrow, tomorrow came and he just hid in his room, Monday was scary cause my Blood Sugar was low, I had to contact my best friend
to come down and take me to the store to get food, pop tarts and to pick up my medication, I was really bad off that day, the whole time I was with
I was in a daze, barley remembered he was there, it was scary.
Today I needed to go to the hospital to check to see if the medication I was taking was not making things worse, noon when I got up my brother was gone, checked a little awhile ago and he was on his computer, I used the restroom and asked if we could go up... he responded in aggravation with "how long is that gonna take?"
I just told him never mind and now I am in here and really depressed.
I have had to think about an offer that my sis
gave me, when she gets a new house I would be invited to move in and live with them... sadly I think the guilt of leaving my brother alone would be too much, so I will just stay, will probably shorten my life cause I can't get the help I need from my brother.
What ever happens I at least have
here, if anything happens to me he will make sure to let the people I care about online know if something happens.
Want to close with that even with all the hardships and stress dealing with people turning on me or trolling or what ever, being here and meeting all the people was worth it, I love the people that care about me, you guys kept me going on when I thought that I had no strength to.
Love you guys *hugs* thanks for reading>