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Most people know why, but I feel the need to explain a bit for people who may not know.

I am a wreck because of medical issues, brother is mostly ignoring me which is putting me in more jeopardy.

Right now (and has been going on for awhile) I am really tired and it feels like at random I will just start hurting really bad out of no where (it happened last night) not sure if that means my Kidneys are dead or what, but that is what I am living with and can't take anymore meds because the doctors won't let me for the fact that since my kidneys don't work it would be bad cause that stuff will build up in my body.

So that is where I am at and that is the reasons why I am not online as much and commissions are slow.

Also... I may seem more clingy and prone to hugging, I get this stupid notion in my head that I don't have a lot of time left and want to be more expressive, so if it seems like I am getting more lovey it is because of that, I want to hug everyone I am close to even if the person feels weirded out by it, so if it bothers you please let me know.

That is it, thank you for reading and hopefully understanding, I wish you all the best *hugs* <3
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Last week I had an appointment at the hospital, they want to get me setup for a minor surgery to expand a vain in my left arm.

It is for dialyses, I will have to go three times a week, I guess it is not the worst thing that anyone can go through, but it's pretty scary to me.

They also changed one of my medications, so now I take Lisinopril two times a day instead of one,

Which leads to my rant, my brother, I asked him to go to the store some days ago, he said we would go tomorrow, tomorrow came and he just hid in his room, Monday was scary cause my Blood Sugar was low, I had to contact my best friend :iconwrathofzod: to come down and take me to the store to get food, pop tarts and to pick up my medication, I was really bad off that day, the whole time I was with :iconwrathofzod: I was in a daze, barley remembered he was there, it was scary.

Today I needed to go to the hospital to check to see if the medication I was taking was not making things worse, noon when I got up my brother was gone, checked a little awhile ago and he was on his computer, I used the restroom and asked if we could go up... he responded in aggravation with "how long is that gonna take?"

I just told him never mind and now I am in here and really depressed.

I have had to think about an offer that my sis :iconfirefly8083: gave me, when she gets a new house I would be invited to move in and live with them... sadly I think the guilt of leaving my brother alone would be too much, so I will just stay, will probably shorten my life cause I can't get the help I need from my brother.

What ever happens I at least have :iconwrathofzod: here, if anything happens to me he will make sure to let the people I care about online know if something happens.

Want to close with that even with all the hardships and stress dealing with people turning on me or trolling or what ever, being here and meeting all the people was worth it, I love the people that care about me, you guys kept me going on when I thought that I had no strength to.

Love you guys *hugs* thanks for reading>
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Been down and out because of the cold, spend too much to e sleeping again... And ever since last weekend my teeth (what is left of them that is) hurt really bad, so that is why I have only streamed Monday.

Will try to be back at it soon, got two x-rated commissions to do so I might just finish them offline cause I don't want to offend anyone x3

That is it for me,  just an update to let people know what is going on, thanks for reading *hugs*
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Game time?

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Well I me an Xbox One and PS4 (thanks to my fave fast food place Taco Bell <3)

So I am wanting to be able to game with people more, my public XBL/PSN is DamnEvilDog :D

More to the point of this journal is I want to game with people, was thinking about buying some stuff on which ever console, but not sure what to get.

Right now there is a sale for Destiny on PS4, all the DLC that is out plus the main game for $39,59... problem is I felt kinda burned by getting the game on launch for full price and having so little content :c is there anything else anyone is playing? I prefer more co-op stuff.

Also been thinking about having segmented "Game Time" on the weekends to setup a opportunity to game with people (maybe even stream the games when I play) if anyone is interested.

Anyhoo that is it, guess I will look over the sales on both consoles and see if there is anything I want, thanks for reading *hugs
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Update

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Hey guys, sorry I have not been around, been really sick feeling (well more then usual) spent most of the last I dunno how long sleeping. starting to feel better-ish so I figured I would post a journal as to why I have not been around ^^;

Things have been so crappy for me that I ended up sleeping most of the last 3 days (got up a bit yesterday and today to eat Thanksgiving foods and cookies my brother made) and that was about it ._.;;

Played some games, but I just wanted to fall asleep instead of game (so I know I am not doing well when I don't want to game >u>)

Still open for commissions btw, I have one I owe and I am really sorry I just sort of disappeared, but it was out of my control.

So if anyone wants a commission let me know, I am down to like $3... besides the one up there I owe I have one I finished days ago and need to upload (will do soon)

Thanks for reading and I hope your holiday went better then mine *hugs* ^^
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Sorry for not being around much by DamnEvilDog, journal

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Teeth hurts and it is too cold by DamnEvilDog, journal

Game time? by DamnEvilDog, journal

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